Me too. And that's okay. Because crying is not for cowards.
I am a crier. I am sensitive and raw since day one on this Earth. If you know me you should already know by now that the amount of tears I shed, can probably water an entire land. My tears are one big bundle of contradictions. It doesn't matter if I am crying because I am happy for someone or because something horrible has happened in my life. When I feel that the waterworks are about to begin, I just let it all out and my inner critic yells at me that the tears are for the weak; the cowards.
In the past, I was often being told that I am a "hot mess" and that "I have too many issues." And I have let this steep the way into how I viewed myself. I have learned that it's wrong to cry because other people consider it as an indication of weakness. I've learned to feel ashamed.
But what I came to realise is that there is no shame in expressing your authentic feelings and letting your tears shine a light in this emotionally disabled society we live in.
Sensitive people have a vivid inner life, a keen awareness to others pain, an ability to empathize and passion. Yes, passion for it all. Every word, every action and every energy goes straight to our hearts. We pick up on everything, from a change in the air to a background of delicate sounds because we are sensitive to our surroundings. Weak are the ones who hold their emotions in. Weak are the ones who do not embrace reality.
It's okay to break down. And it is also okay to cry yourself to sleep. Never apologise for being sensitive. Your tears are just a sign of a big heart and that you aren't afraid to expose it. Showing your emotions is a sign of strength. Millions have decided not to be sensitive. They have grown thick skins around themselves just to avoid being hurt. But it is at great cost. Nobody can hurt them but nobody can make them happy either.
Trust me on this one – because just like my tears, this came from the heart. █